a- link to original post
b-what circumstance do I believe lead to this post being written?
I hate to say that the reason to this post is me. I said thing without being fully ready to speak them. I liked her a lot, and – as it says in the post – I loved how she made me feel. We spoke a lot about this, and I have to admit – hating it again – to say that many of those conversations ended up as arguments because o started defending myself instead of accepting what I had done and taking responsibility for it.
c-whatβs the central idea or message?
She is telling how I have lied or spoken half-truths about how I have claimed to love her. She is showing me that I didn’t love her, but loved an idea and a feeling rather then her. She also wants to show what love is – not only for her, but what it truly is. It is not always sparks and comfort. It is hard work. It is to till the earth, plant a seed, and tend to it to make sure it grows sturdy and healthy. It is teamwork and it is not easy. But it is worth it. It is growth, it is change, it is becoming something different- something better. SomethingΒ more.
d-whatβs the tone of the post (The author’s attitude toward the subject)?
I feel the tone here is direct and clear. It is meant as sharing an experience, and to tell how things happened. I don’t feel it hostile or judging, but more explanatory and meant as more informative than blaming. But it shows how I have taken something, used it as a shelter and not what it was meant for. I used it to get attention and to feel better about myself, and not invest and build something together. It was selfish, and it was harmful.
e-whatβs the mood of the post? (The overall atmosphere or feeling the post creates)?
And I feel that these things comes through in this post as well. That I hurt her, that I took advantage of her – and others – to get attention and to keep to a “safe place” in the relationship. she feel cheated. I stole from her, I took from her, and I showed I didn’t want to give back any of the things I gave to her.
f-how does the post make you feel?
The first feeling that springs up is embarrassment. Regrets follows son aster, because I could have done so little to have had so much. I only needed to be honest, open, and not say things I wasn’t ready to say yet or say them for the wrong reasons. I am also ashamed of myself. For have been this person. Finally I feel a bit confusion. Because I am not sure if I have actually ever truly felt love “correctly”. Β I know I have done the “right things” in relationships, but they haven’t been because that is what I haveΒ felt inside of me.
g-what do you like about the post?
I like her language here. The analogies she uses are making things clear and easy to understand properly. I like how she makes me want to do things better instead of turning defensive and argumentative. She encourages change instead of judging when showing me how I have behaved.
h-what do you dislike about the post?
That I have lied so horribly to her. That she has been left feeling this. How she felt that I wouldn’t listen to her when she spoke to me about these things, and that I didn’t put the work into the relationship. I decided to argue and drive he away instead.
I-what questions does the post leave you with?
There are some questions that rises in me. But they are not about this post, directly. They’re – shockingly – about myself. Why I have done this? How did I become this person? Β How can I make changes that lasts? I wont continue on them here, ad this is not the place for it. But they are there, and I wanted to at lest write them out.
j-do you connect with the post? Why or why not?
Yes, I feel so. I see the message in the post, I feel her frustration and the deception she suffered. I see myself in it, and just because I don’t like what I see, I wont deny it or defend myself against it. Instead I will take it al to heart, and I will do my best to never do any of these things again.
a- link to original post
b-what circumstance do I believe lead to this post being written?
I think this was written to just find a way to express emotions, memories. Feelings. To try to have a look at it from a different point of view, perhaps?
c-whatβs the central idea or message?
I think the idea here is to convey a feeling from a night. A moment where things were “everything in my life is so perfect, everything is so easy.”
d-whatβs the tone of the post (The author’s attitude toward the subject)?
It is a rather “heavy” post. A lot of feeling, emotions, senses and passion. At the same time it is light and kind of effortless. Perhaps as these things “should”be?
e-whatβs the mood of the post? (The overall atmosphere or feeling the post creates)?
It is warm, good and – for a lack of a better word – sexy. It is strong and it takes the reader into the moment of the Waltz.
f-how does the post make you feel?
I am not sure. I don’t feel very well. I feel jealousy, regrets, anger towards myself and sorrow. Then I feel selfish for feeling these things. It is what I wanted, but squandered away. It was what I desired more than anything, but never dared to communicate.
g-what do you like about the post?
I like the way she writes. The emotions are thick in this one, and it is beautiful to read.
h-what do you dislike about the post?
The emotions it awakens in me, the memories of what almost was, what could have been and that this is very likely not about me. And I feel a bit of confusion. I don’t fully understand everything that is meant with the post, and I don’t fully understand it.
I-what questions does the post leave you with?
There are several “what if”s and similar things I am regretting, but I don’t think there ever will be an answer to.
j-do you connect with the post? Why or why not?
I think so. I can feel it, I can feel the room and the situation. At the same time I fear it. It feels as if a thousand blades strikes at my heart as I read it, knowing its not for me…
