(a short) History

“I must earn everything.”
“Joy is conditional.”
“Love is dangerous.”
“Too much good will be taken away.”
“If I grow, they will hurt me.”
“If I shine, I become a target.”

Trauma steals self-trust. Neurodivergence intensifies doubt. I survived by becoming hyper competent, not by learning to feel safe.

This is fixable (not saying I am broken. This is all history living in my body. So consider it a rewrite). Not by forcing belief by chanting affirmations. But by doing what nobody did for me.

Teaching myself that:
-I do not destroy what I love.
-stability is not a threat.
-joy is survivable.
-I am safe — even from myself.