Did you ever have a moment in your life when everything seemed so… perfect? You could see every line of your path before you, and everything made sense (?).
No?
Me either.
I have always found a higher way, but it has been through trial and error (and lots of yelling, sleepless nights, and journaling).
Alex told me this is because I have been told not to believe in myself. She said that we are all born with an internal compass and this is how we are to navigate our lives. We are to set our intentions and trust that everything will work out the way we want because that is how things have always been.
I scoffed. Who the hell gets the things that they want?
Asking me to remember how good it feels to be loved and loved in return… and as I blankly stare at her, she shakes her head.
Babe, she says, there have been some good ones.
I stared at her again.
She smiled at me and assured me that no matter what I say or do, there will always be a variety of companions for me to choose from. One of these days, she sighed, you might let one of them close enough to love that tender heart, huh?
The jury is out on that one.
Knowing that I Am Love is proving to be difficult enough. Dragging this corpse I call my body from one end of the house to another without making it sound like I am doing a Halloween Haunting is terrifying. I am micromanaging each breath like it is going to make a difference.
Learning to trust others and my creations is why I write. Remembering what joy I found in my life is my quest for the next week. I have to switch off what is not working and focus on what I want.
Living in trust and letting the trust do the work – not forcing or trying to make something happen (note: it will not happen this way now will it nope uh nᨵׁׅᨵׁׅᨵׁׅ).
How: Learn to have trust in others (but this does not mean you have to hash out a damn word with anyone else, HERE IS THE TEA OKAY – DO NOT TRUST IN ANYONE ELSE’S ABILITY TO MAKE ANYTHING WORK OUT FOR YOU. DO THE WORK YOURSELF. NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU TRY TO CONTROL, FIX, OR FORCE YOUR PRACTICE OR BELIEFS ON SOMEONE ELSE, THEY ARE NOT GOING TO CHANGE UNLESS THEY ARE READY TO).
Trust issues? Learn how to trust yourself.
The same goes for health problems, friends. Healthy people live in trust that their body knows what it is doing. They have complete trust that the molecules and atoms of their physical being knows what to do, and they do it perfectly.
$ – Trust is a happy, cosy home where you live in the knowing that all things related to your security, finances and even power are all working for you and your advantage without you having to control every detail. Put your trust in your empire and your workers making millions for you (or whatever does it for you).
Choose your fighter:
A: You are forcing, fixing or trying to change someone or something and hammering yourself
B: You are deciding to live in trust/state of mind that is evidence of doing the “work”
