There is a reason the βI am Godβ corner feels magnetic. It simplifies the terror. If you are the sole author, then nothing is arbitrary. Nothing blindsides you. Nothing humiliates you without consent.
That is a very comforting story. It is also false.
Physics does not care about your narrative arc. Gravity does not negotiate. Cells replicate with or without your spiritual alignment. Other people wake up every morning carrying their own private universes that do not orbit yours.
That is the collaborative brutality. Collaboration is not helplessness.
You are not God. You are a participant. Agency lives in that space.
You cannot control the storm. You can decide whether to build shutters or dance in it.
You cannot control another personβs inner world. You can decide how you respond to their behaviour.
You cannot control entropy. You can decide what kind of structure you build, knowing entropy exists.
That is not small power. That is enormous power.
You are not claiming omnipotence. You are acknowledging a pattern. You are saying: I may not control the weather, but I do control whether I become sharp or tender inside it.
Surrender is not collapse. Surrender is about acknowledging the limits of control, allowing you to stop wasting energy pretending you have it.
Control says: I must bend reality to fit me.
Surrender says: I will meet reality and choose my stance.
And stance is everything.
The seductive part of total self-authorship is that it erases vulnerability. If you are God, you cannot be hurt by randomness β you must have βmanifestedβ it. That framework secretly turns suffering into failure. It turns chaos into a moral judgment.
But reality does not operate morally at the atomic level. It operates probabilistically.
The weather arrives.
Cells mutate.
Time erodes.
Inside that indifferent machinery, consciousness wakes up and asks: how shall I act?
That question is sacred without being supernatural.
You are not the architect of the universe.
You are the architect of your posture inside it.
And posture changes everything.
Cruelty is a posture.
Tenderness is a posture.
Avoidance is a posture.
Leadership is a posture.
When you ask, βWhere is the leader who leads me?β the quiet answer is: leadership is not a crown someone hands you. It is the moment you stop outsourcing your stance.
That does not make you divine.
It makes you accountable.
And accountability is far more powerful than omnipotence because it operates in the real world, the collaborative one, the one where storms still come.
