flee. sabotage. detach. numb. shrink.
not self-hatred (not exactly), more like… happiness is not safe.
expect less. make yourself smaller. quieter.
no one will say:
“You are good enough”
“You are worthy”
“I believe in you”
“I will not abandon you”
“You are adored for who you are”
So I developed: independence, intellect, imagination, humour, resilience… but not self-trust.
How do you ever know if you are doing it right?
Self-trust grows through being consistently cared for. I did not get that, so I became the caretaker instead. Caretakers rarely trust their own needs. They learn their worth from service, not sovereignty.
