ββ΄οΈΛｑβLive
Everything is alive. Not in some twee, metaphoric wayβbut in essence. In trill, pulse, in a presence. I am not animating the worldβ I can hear it singing already. A…
π¦Ή Whispered Spell
I have insomnia. Not the kind that sleep CBT can suss out in 7-45 working days. Heavy narcotics hardly do the job either. It is, "No one will come. You…
κ© Tea Time
By the time I reach for my morning tea, it is cold. What is meant to comfort me is a tepid cup that tastes like a sigh. It was not…
β there is no placebo
I had to let you go. But it did not happen one morning, out of the blue. It certainly did not happen altogether in just one day. It took me…
β on a plain
Kurt Cobain taught us all we needed to know about life when we were kids - we just thought we were listening to cool music. βPlease don't deceive me when…
β last flowers
you know as a child when you are unwanted. even when you have a roof over your head and shoes on your feet, you know you were never meant…
Collapse
Unsubstantiated fear = obsessive thought processes = increased unsubstantiated fear = increasingly obsessive thought processes = even more unsubstantiated fear = uncontrollably obsessive thought processes = psychosis. Welcome to an…
we got machines (but the kids got jesus)
Yesterday, yeesh. Today, I started a conversation that made me feel a little better. It is beyond me why you would want to be with someone that you had no…
mis.anthropy
i had explained it (sort of like) this: a long time ago, i played the violin. i had a music teacher when i was a preteen that played several instruments…
Same Deep Water As You
Once upon a time, in a kingdom not so-very far away, lived a girl named Melinda. She was not tall, nor fair. She did not inherit a fortune when her…
βΉcrushed mementos
If I had a fairy godmother, after she picked me off the newly scrubbed bathroom tiles, she would ask me why I was so sad and what is it that…
βΉdid.i.fall.or.was.i.pushed
Last night. Trepidation set in. I got so wrapped up in my negative emotions that I could not move. I had some sort of psychosomatic paralysis. It was scary as…